my very core has been rocked. thank goodness my foundation is solid in my Lord Jesus Christ. what do you do when the person you normally look to for guidance, for laughter, for blessings and reminders, no longer looks you in the eye? "i find my security in God and God alone" i repeat over and over. yet there are the doubts that find a way of creeping in. are they lies or conviction? i know im not perfect, but i do my best to let the holy spirit flourish within me so that i might bear all of His fruits. perhaps it is not enough. maybe i am being sensitive. perhaps i am reading to closely into the words that cut away at my joy and leave me in a state of confusion and hurt. did i imagine the shortness of tone? the impatience in your voice? im so sorry if i havnt loved you enough. ill try to do better.
father,
Thank you for your faithfulness. Thank you for your unending love and devotion. Thank you for your promises, for your Holy Spirit who is at work in me. i pray that you would bless me with the supernatural ability to love. i pray for a selfless love. that i would find joy in working for others gain and not my own. grant me patience. grant me joy. i pray that i would find my strength in you and you alone, the one constant in my life, so that in times of worry, sadness or doubt, i can stand firm in the faith and firm in the dignity that you have bestowed upon me. you love me, Lord, and that is all that matters. o what a friend we have in Jesus. Father, i pray that any girl who is doubting her steps right now would look to your face and know that she has a father who loves her very very much, no matter her mistakes or shortcomings. it is a love that the conditional love of the world is no match for. that is where her security lay. heal this broken spirit, Lord. protect us from the enemy's attacks so that our bond of sisterhood in faith may not be broken. strengthen us Lord God. For i am a woman clothed in strength and dignity. thank you Lord Jesus. Amen
