i'm alive and i'm free, who wouldn't wanna be me.

every journey begins with a step. this particular journey begins with a step towards love, towards passion. after a slight relapse in my all to familiar friend named depression the other night, i took a day dedicated to my God and re-fixed my forgotten priorities. for while i am filled with compassion for others, i frequently struggle with love. i yearn for a day when i may open my heart fully to my friends and love them with every fiber of my being. this is a trait i have been praying for for years. i expressed this desire to God once again, and he simply said to me, "have patience. i am working in you, but it will be slow. it's like a diet. go on a crash diet and you'll gain all that weight back. but this? this is a life style change. this is a change that will be deep and permanent." and so this morning i awoke with the same determination to set my mind on my creator as i had the day before. i sat, and i worshiped and i prayed. and already i feel lighter. i think L.A is going to be very sunny and warm, and its not due to their beautiful weather. no, this joy will come from my heart. and i am very excited for my journey to begin.