Its interesting to see what it feels like to face the world alone. i can honestly say that i have never been in this situation before. God has always been faithful in providing me with at least one friend that is very similar to myself in faith and lifestyle. there has always been someone with whom i can sympathize and vice versa. but now....its God and I. I've become introverted again. although, this time around, i cant say thats a bad thing. Instead of taking all my thoughts and desires to myself, i've been taking them to God and in that i can feel my relationship with Him continuing to grow. is it lonely? sometimes. most of the time. but then i think of the apostles: John, Paul, Peter, sitting in their cells, mocked for their faith, with God as their only source of strength. They had friends via letters, similar to myself, but their was no one to lunch with, no one to laugh with, no one to hold them when things were too much to bare - save the hand of God. I have been in love with Gods Word. i let myself disappear in it and there i find solace. and i pray daily for a companion. i know that God will provide me that confidant when the timing is right. but perhaps i need to grow a little in the meantime. things are happening inside of me. the hole is slowly but surely being filled. and despite the ups and downs of the past few weeks, one thing remains forever constant: God is Faithful.